just when u tot u had time for a breather, its on u again. Never tiring nor needing rest, it will hound u day and night until u finally break. Even then, it will not stop in its sadistic pursuit. spawn of darkness, vile creature of the night, to hel with thee.

guess im in the mythology mood. its now just 1 day aft the prelims, and immediately we have to start chionging again. forever studying, rushing, running. its lik the saying goes, u can run but ya can't hide. Ive been hiding for so long and now the beast is upon me. my weak attacks are no used on its hardened scales. The results are lousy, and it only seems to enrage it. What is a feeble mortal like me to do? haizzz....

i want to rest and relax but time is not on my side. neither are my results too. hate school. the sch completely drain all the enthusiasium and happiness out of me. sure ther are friends tohelp but i still hate YJC. i hate the way it forces us to do things and then scold us for not doing something else. i hate the way it changes ppl to become more selfish.

Dam YJC!!!! i hate it!!!!!

yea!!! prelims over!!!! actually no. still got 2 more papers =.= anyway today feel very happy for some reason. i thinks coz the worst of the papers are over liao. spend my aft at arisas house slping and slacking, then had dinner there. Feels very differrnt from when i have dinner with my family. everybody toks like very good friend lidat. Hmmmmm not used to it. They seem so close, i suddenly feel like im the 1 who is a loner O.O anyway thanks for the donut arisa! yum yum!

anyway go home feel very relaxed. i see the new com the good graphics and the hear the bleach opening them so filled of life i feel at peace suddenly.

shld i play dota tonight? hmmm.....

I am so screwed. misanswered a lot of questions in bio. i had gone tru all the chaptors but i dun think i will do well. i guess this there is no escaping from it. i am not smart. i always used to think that if i study i can do very well but apparently this is not the case. just look at my chem and maths. maths ive been staying back in sch to practise but yet i still screw up the paper. same goes for chem. The sad thing is that becoz of these 2 subs i have neglected bio for the whole past few weeks and only started last fri, and it looks like im going to fail even my best subs. i guess i have to stop kidding myself.

i am not smart. I do not belong in jc.

Notices a few things. In jc, u are only popular when u are smart or good in ur studies. ppl want to make frens with u and they look down on ppl who are not, even if they themselves are not smart.

anyways having a headache since math paper. slpt a while but it seems to have worsen it. So im going to sleep again. nightz

dam it its the chinese ghost festival again. there is a getai right under my condo and its bugging the hell right out of me. from the 21 floor i can still hear the stupid old songs. lidat how to conc for my prelims??? arrrgghhh!!!! Can i bunk in at some1s house for the time being?

Today ate kfc with arisa. had a craving for kfc aft watching 1 of the southpark shows. anyway cannot slack anymore have to start working hard. time to build up teh momentum again. i dun really care how well i score for this prelim all i want is to pass. i promise to keep up the revisions and do better for the A levels =)

hmmm haven been studying since the day be4 national day cos feel very sick and tired. at least i started agian yesterday. suddebly realise that no time for prelim liao. But then look at timetable then feel lik got alot of time again.

bah never mind la.I think shld be able to pass the prelims la. wanted to get c one but considering that the paper is going to be tuff and the fact that i haven spend as much time as i planned revising so i guess i will aim for a max D for all my subs except geog.

Anyway found a new webpage got alot of south park shows which i THINK are quite "funny" but of cos, its only my opinion and u dun have to slam me or anything.
I lik "prehistoric ice man", "night of the living homeless" and "tsst" teh most ^^ not to forget the "make love not warcraft", that was hilarious too.

BTW i will try to blog when i can but no promises =)

the ultimate test of the day!!!!

Create your own Friend Test here


koup this from arisa's blog =) pls dun do this test if u are currently unwell. stressed or have no time to spare.

side effects of doin the test include vomiting of blood and agressive behaviour *feel lik whacking some1*

dell is so dam irresponsible. Forever postponing the delivery of the com. FUCK the person who is looking at my com right now so bloody kay po -.- as i was saying, the delivery postpone to mon but my dad not happy so supp tocome today at nine. then they call at 10 say they will bring at 12. -.- i really dunno wad the heck they doing sia really pisses me off.

feel lik a black sheep at home. getting scolded cos i tried playing my brother's toy plane. so many reasons to scold me. never study la, always disturb my brother la, very irritating la. i dun see my second bro being scolded for doing WWE moves on my bro. y am i scolded when all i did was to turn on a toy? do anything u also not happy. fix the com u say i no skill will spoil everything. com kena virus and its my fault. printer spoil its my fault. my money kena stolen its my fault. no food left for me when i go home and u always ask me to keep food for the family. U scold me for ignoring u and being rude when u use critisize me sarcastically.

as if i dun have enuf stress as it is already.

full of angst

today my stomach not behaving itself. stomach not feeling well all the way since this morn. maybe its cos of the late dinners ive been having. or maybe its cos of the chilli sotong my maid cook. kanina still ask me eat more of it. =.= today supp to meet meet gin and help her pass stuff to shalini cos gin not going sch. then sian stomach ache. lucky saw joel on the way to toilet then ask him help me collect. when reach sch for assembly also dam stomach ache so go toilet. then dun feel lik going back to hall so crowded *im a crowdphobic* saw nat loner at lib outside so tok to him. Tonight also stomachache the shit look the same as in the morning *sorry for the graphic detail* now my butt feels lik its on fire.

And so i go home early. wah stomachache all the way home. go home immediately unload. anyway my com coming tmr ! ^^ can't wait. Hope the dell dun kanina delay again...

today and tmr night is rest. will chiong again on sat =)

basket chem teacher say wad those who slp in class are those who do badly. fine whatever. u are a nerd u wun understand ppl lik us. diff ppl need diff hours of slp ok? And wads wrong with taking short naps in btwn breaks? u say u observe that those who take naps are those who do badly. Sure we may do badly. But many heros throughout history are known for taking short naps. albert einstein took short naps. winston churchill took short naps. Alexander even nap while on his horse!!!

anyway maths dam sian. i think the whole asp program lik waste time. And screw those teachers who think that aft asp we have time to do anything else. screw those teachers who say we never make time to study. looks lik most teachers have no brains at all. do u think we have the time to do both? even doing hw is tuff enuf. even if its possible to not slack a single day, how long can we keep up the momentum be4 our body fails us? DAM it. u frigging ppl dun even think be4 u do anything. And yet u scold us for not focusing. Try focusing for 10+ hr a day and i'll see u crumble to dust in a sec =.=" HAIZzzzzz

k enuf of the angst. thanks boon for acc me to try study for the past 2 days. today did the gp with sheng yi and boon. dunno where the rest go. too tired i presume. had another bonding and sharing session. i dunno bout u all but i think quite fun although im sooooooooooooo tired. anyways good luck to those who are trying the best including me :)

tired.

haiz tired. today mug maths aft sch not that productive since i haven revise my math yet so alot of ques not sure how to do. Lucky to have free mee goreng today haha. Had bonding session with nat, fami and boon during "desert" tok alot of crap and laugh alot. such sessions are to be treasured as they dun happen often. those who spend thier life rushing will end up regreting. Balance work and play, thats my style. * although i tend to balance it more to the play side.

anyway i think i just made jacky angry. sorry Jacky. i only said wad i did with good intentions.

tired

hey guess wad? i got 65 for bio paper 2!!! woot!! miss lim also gave an inspirational speech last fri. every1's toking about it. well no surprises, considering that she is the only teacher who never criticize our this time blk test results. THEN i get to mrs tan the math teacher trying to inflict depression on me by reminding me im the lowest. =.=



Mrs tan: score lowest still can laugh.



Mrs tan: lowest still dowan copy ans ar.



Mrs tan: ay u lowest not sad ar?



anyway went out with kx aft sch on fri. met at 7++ and only ate inner at 9. why? cos we were looking for zx's bday present. *yea i noe last month over liao hope zx dosen read this lol* almost bought C & C tiberium wars for him. lucky never sia cos he buy liao diao. haha i swear kx was a little nervous cos i looked ready to eat the whole shop! we supose to divide the cost equally 1 =P. Anyway enjoyed myself alot la. we shld have more outings aft my As!! =)



anyway i want to be mugger liao. hope to score Bs for my prelims. duno if possible but thats my aim for now. scoff at me if u wan but i will definitely do better next round ;)



To tell u the truth, i do not deserve the praise miss lim gave me. although i said i study i only studied lik 2 days in advance for it. it was mostly luck that i could get such results. if not for those 2 ques, i would have failed bcos the rest of my ques sux.

ok so my study marathon started today. reached home and was feeling dead tired. dunno y im always so tired... supp to slp a while then i lie down for 10 mins lidat then hr call me. so tok tok tok then after that want to rest a while more then kx call me lol. not that i angry but just saded i cannot slp. in the end never slp then i went to bath and started the run.

accomplishment? well i completed the group 7 tut with a few blanks and didnt do the last ques cos too tired. from 8 to 9 30 i coup my self in my tiny cell and forced myself to conc. so far so good. however not as effective as i had tot it would be. To tell u the truth my mind was tired and had some difficulty processing the tougher ques in the tut.

anyway today stared out alright, with the assembly ending early. seems that every1 under my name in the contact list did not do the bio tut cos i forget send the message. So to those that kena scolding =/

Thank you for ur sacasm, i really apprieciate it alot. when im in the wrong i will admit it there is no need for u to point it out bitch. did i say bitch? U are the sort of thing i dislike about girls, fickle minded, backstabbing and crybabies. Not holding anything against girls but i cant stand this sort of behaviour. Even if it is guys who possessess such characteristics. It just seems to me that girls are more prone to doing this kind of things and when things go awry some will do the act cute face which is utterly disgusting.

Anyway, made up my mind to stop being so emo. i live my own life and nobody has the power to affect my emotions. sorry if i offended any1 in the para above but its 1 of the few times words flow so freely so i would lik to keep it ther. To those of u who have supported me the past few days, i wish u all the best for da test. for those that haven, i wish u all the best too. no point getting so emo =)

Arrrrgghhh!!!! i got 17 for maths!!! hmmm guess shld be expected la. i mean how can u expect good grades when u didnt even bother to mem the formulas? i would lik to thank zqq, myself and 1 for my spetacular results. anways, i gonna fail all my other subs so i better stop being such a whiner and get some studying going.

oyea watch life in the undergrowth just now. its dam nice la hahahaha or maybe i have a sick mind =/ never do any hw. how u expect us to do hw when its the test period u retarted teachers?? dun mean to insult all but most in yjc gets on my nerves.....

sch starts proper tmr. too bad i never do any hw. what a bad start =.=

not feeling well. my stomach has been churning lik a broken washing machine since fri. dunnoy also so tired. So sian. i feel like i have nothing to look forward to. Even the arrival of the new com that ive been pestering my dad to get isn't getting me excited. I have no motivation. right now i feel like an empty shell.

Stupid dell. The new com supp to come today in the end delay to thurs.

thinking of nothing. And yet my heart feels so heavy. thoughts go and pass too fast for me to grasp them. Maybe im just tired. it all be better tmr morning =)

wasted 3 hrs of my life on maths yesterday. had tution on thurs but realise i forgot everything. To those of u guys who claim u all " never study", i know u guys did. looks like ur words only can believe half only. so whatever it is, good luck to those who took the block test =)

Anyway, after the test we went a round looking for a lan shop. most of the lan shops were full. In the end we went to amokio play lan. Be4 that went eat sumo bento. the food was cheap but not as cheap as kh describe lol. The lan shop there sux like the 1 in plaza sing beside speedy. The coms dun have some games, its lik the location of the games are completely random.

SO we play dota and were trashed (cause kh was the only pro player there) then we played CnC tiberium wars. wanted to play zero hour but joel keep saying old game not nice. lol whatever lor i just feel that i dun lik playing tiberium wars cos i dun even noe wad each unit are and cannot guess cos " too technologically advanced" for me. The building sistem is also diff from other strategy games ive played so far.

Aft playing went home and saw xue min and pek ha at the interchange. tok tok a bit then see qin yi and fiona then they ignore me until i say hi to them. so tau. Went home slp, then go play dota with kx.

looking forward to the dota game today cos got new player :)

My mp3 randomed this song for me. long time since i heard it.


Should I Stay

by Dreamz FM

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…

feel lik eating shushimi. but there is a shortage of tuna!!! never mind la i prefer salmon more. also feel lik wating carl's junior. never eat before.

Tmr is geog paper. haven study. later try read a bit. cos i feel that study geog no point. always fail. maybe my answing method wrong. The current teacher also sux i feel. i prefer miss selvi lor. although she everytime scold us but she teach very step by step and i like.

anyway, no hope for this block test liao. i guess i will have to work harder on the next 1.

hmmm long time never drink beer liao. anyway i also dun lik the taste. but i like the feeling. when i drink, i feel mature and that i can leave my problems behind. teh company helps too as i only drink if got ppl i noe. hmmm not tad i feel lik drinking also. dunno y i tok rubbish.

for those that are depressed out there, very sorry but there is nothing much i can do. i also feeling very down. i dun wan to say u can call me or anything cos i feeling very loner since beginning of this year already. Study hard and get out of this god damned place and im sure u will feel much better. i'll be trying to do the same too.

ARGH I CAN'T GET ANYTHING INTO MY GOD DAM HEAD!!!! screw it. my father got tix for transformers tmr night. screw that too. -.-

i not studying liao la. nothing going in also. i absent mindedly stare at the paper for 15 mins. then i realise wad i doing then try to mentally read the words but after a while stone again.

WAD IS THISS!!!! WADS HAPPENING TO ME!!!!!

damit.

wah today bio was a killer la. lik study or dun study also no diff cos the question totally never see be4 1. Anyway im desperately trying to get smt in my head for chembut it seems that nothings going in. i can stare at the paper for 10 mins and realise im onl the same page lol.

somebody save me!!!! i guess its unavoidable. my fate is sealed. i can only redeem myself aft the tests -.-

I CANT FOCUS!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!! *goes into frenzy*

so tired. tired tired tired. *sung to the "so horny" tune*

tmr is bio and i haven revise photosynthesis and evolution!!! *mendalian genetics too but i think i will skip that =)* i guess bo bian must wake up early study tmr... haizzzzz....

really wish i had studied cos the way i see it, the subjects aren't really that hard to study lor. But now if wan last minute study got too many things to mem -.-

btw chem paper 2 is ONLY 45 MINS!!! O.O didint notice that till joel pointed it out. cool. means can no need go sch on that day....?

hmmm nothing else to write about. dunno y ginny want me blog also -.- nobody wants to read bout my boring life anyway =.=

hello scornofearth,

been a while since we've last met huh? sorry for my inconsistant visits ya? Things have been very chaotic lately. Two of my relatives passed away last week. 1 died of some illness. It was sudden. But not as sudden as the death of her brother 2 days later. Apparently he could not take the shock. im not close to them but my mum is. so she had to leave to malaysia with my dad to attend the funeral.

ever since that day, ive been noticing many things that i usually overlook. Keep thinking of my sec sch days and wishing i could be there forever. we were childish, but it was fun. Now everybody has change to be more mature. Unknowingly i have too although it is hard to admit. Things that were once fun are no more fun now. Those days of teasin ppl, wrestling and bullying friends. i also see my youngest brother and see myself in him. Lazy, but lik to draw and play. skinny, picky, scared of the world, the unknown.

i still am who i am last time. stubborn as always, afraid of formalities and authorities. full of angst.

tmr is the start ofthe test week. Haven study much. gonna flunk. gonna let every1 down. Sorry guys, all those promises about scoring better, Im afraid i cant keep them. So sorry everyone.

its been soooooo long since i blog. perhaps some of u tot i had died from that sickness huh?!!

* crawls out from the grave*

well anyway, i dun feel lik blogging anymore. somehow i do not have the zest i had in my sec sch years anymore. Almost everyday im feeling depressed and down. i think i am suffering from down syndrome.

kk just joking about above. yesterday i slack whole day. felt so good. and i feel bad bout it. HEY i just made a paradox!

kx asked me: "when am i going to start studying" i didnt noe how to reply so i just gave my standard ans i always give when facing this kind of situation. "soon"
how soon? well seriously ive also always asked myself when ill start studying. i have a short attention span so i dunno la k bye.

couldn't sleep last night. whole body aching like siao and temp was 39.1 degree. Morning went see doctor and he supp to give me 2 day mc but my mum dowan. in the end he only give monday mc. Now body still aching. whenever slp then wake up my whole body dam pain and got headache so dowan slp altough tired. Never do any hw also. I hope hw dun pile up haizz...

all my medicines. so many 0.o

My current temp =( whole body aching...

havin a fever right now...my whole body is aching and when and i can taste the back of my throat when i cough. temperature 38.6 degree isit high? i dunno but i noe i feel lik crap now.

Anyway i went for the medical screening yest. My parents brought me there. Had to do blood test la, dental la, x ray la, all this. then aft tad need to take some IQ test. i swear the questions were overwheming. for 1 hr + i stayed in that com lab doing ques after ques. then got 1 section i skipped it accidentally as i was pressing the next button too fast then they say "u have completed this ques" .....

aft tad my parents brought me home and they were dam naggy la. =.=

ate char kuay tiao for lunch.

realise youtube is taking down all the Bleach anime * NOOOOO i will never go to you tube again...* Lucky i found another website which contains anime download for free =)

Supp to go Singapore poly meet farah then meet kx but i didnt feel well so i slept. And guess wad? i overslept >< In the end didnt go then kx had to come my house =P

wanted to go sim lim with kx check out the prices of stuff all these but in the end kx dl somthing then i can finally watch "borat"!!! And so we watched until arisa called and say lets meet at pasta mania at J8.

i ordered some lousy pasta call carbo kana sai and it was really kana sai. lucky gin and arisa could not finish thier meal so i ate thiers ^^ aft tad gin pang seh us and i sent arisa off and i and kx go toa payoh play dota. But the lan there lik shyt la keep disconnecting next time dun go there again.

Went home and started feeling feverish. then today got fever when i woke up. totally cannot move sia, but i 'll survive =)

Oya i finally convince my father to buy new com YES!!! OWNAGE!!!!

ok tads all time to take my medicine cos im sick *in the mind*

sigh....i always blog at the strangest time. when i have alot of work unfinished. maybe blogging is an excuse for me to delay doing my dreadful hw. Afterall im a procastanist. *is that how u spell it?* lets see, i have my GP essay, AQ and summary, 2 bio SPA assignments and a bio test tmr, chem tut, and math so many uncomplete tuts * but not so bad, "not in syllubus anyway hehehe* ....not to forget a geog essay ques...=.=

this has been quite a hell of a week, ate sushi today and yest. yesterday was sakae sushi while today was genki shushi, in fact, i think i ate so much sushi *dam i keep spelling as "shushi" and sushimi that i am starting to look lik a fish *no i dun already look lik a fish thank you very much*

then also worried for my friend... i want to help him but nothing much i can do also other then support him when he needs it. but supporting him is hard too la cos of the bloody hw piling up. Today he ask me go out but i can't cos i have a god dam lot of hw....i am so sorry....i wish i could help more...

sian i hate my life now. All im able to do is mug mug and mug. And im not even doing it all the time. Every free time that i have is spent on doing hw and if 1 day never do hw, it will pile up lik a cockroach multiplying....

k la dun complain so much, must quickly chiong as much hw as possible liao.

Friday the 13th

they say fri day the 13 is an unlucky day. for whatever reason do ppl say that i do not noe. what i noe is that it has certainly been a bad day and experience for me and my friends.


i may use some vulgarities below as i am really tulan with tad person. Maybe im wrong in tad its not my problem and i should not be commenting to much on it as i may not noe everything. However, based on wad ive gone tru with him last night, i think its enuf to noe tad she is an ass hole.


i met my friend last night. His gf or ex gf was creating a lot of problem for him and he was very disturb. And its not the typical breakin up situation. (i shall refer to "her" as bitch) that bitch was threatning to kill herself if my friend dun give in (i shall refer to my friend as dave). dave told me it all started when he was required to work for 3 whole days and could not call her as he was too busy. aft that she started fucking up and said fucking things lik she going out with her ex or wanting to break up. Apparently things were already not going smoothly in the relationship. from wad i heard, it was only a 1 sided love. The bitch was eating all the money dave had cos he paid for everything for her. He even took up the part time job so that he could get more money. Every time Dave had to give in when she throws her tantrums. She also said and did a lot of fucked up things such as getting dave to cut his wrist to prove his love and then him y he is still not dead. After that "work for 3 whole days" incident, things just went downhill.

Now he wants to break but she is threatening him with her life since then till now. 1 fucking whole month. that bitch treated him well enuf for a week or so and went back to torture him after making he sort of got back a bit of feeling for her.


bloody bitch i hope u burn in hell..


but tads was all in the past and to tell u the truth, i felt i was not ready to comment on her at this time u should noe y. however i did tell him tad this relationship cannot move on until 1 side is able to give in. In this case, Dave has already been giving in most of the relationship liao so the problems lie with her. They had a very serious argument the day be4 yest but apparently it was not teh first time. And the grudge was carried on to today.

dave told her he was going out with me today. she said u rather go out with a friend then me? i will kill myself. Dave got worried and tried contacting her but she did not pick. minutes later another girl used the bitch's phone to tell dave to fuck off and not disturb her. Some1 used her phone to sms "dun call my galfriend again or ye shall regret" and "Dun disturb us again im going to fuck her later" *yes that person used the word "fuck". At first i tell Dave to ignore it but then that bitch called and said:

"if u do not find me in 3 hours im going to kill myself"

A game. Using her own lif as something to be played with. How sick can any1 be? She somore did not tell him where she was. And so we traveled all the way to china town to look for this sucidal bitch. Dave keep calling her but she either did not pick up or picked up and dun say anything, leading Dave to belive that she may be dead. looking for 2 hours and she was no where to be seen. She claims her so called friends encouraged her to kill herself.

Dave was desperate and would not listen to my reason to calm down and think. And so the search went on. When his phone ran out of bat i lend him my phone. when she ans her phone she said mental things like: "i can fell the wind on my leg....u dun love me anymore.." i know cos Dave on the loud speaker for me to hear. Dave continued pleading with her. i felt a sorrowful sympathy for Dave as he continued to beg and plead even saying things lik wanting to see her 1 last time and that he would jump in place of her.

The final blow came. That bitch said she did it with a guy, a stranger. Dave coulnt handle it anymore and broke. he completely broke. lt me tell u 1 thing it was not a pretty sight. Dave, whom i never heard swear before yelled at the bitch tad she was fucking stupid. Those who stared were either stared off or shown the finger by me.

aftr that his mother called but he said he did not want to go home. i vounteered to let him stay overnight. In the end he agreed to let his mum fetch him but not without much coaxing. The bitch started calling my phone (she called more then 30 times) until i picked up and yelled

" U fucking chibai bloody hell not call this num again."

Dave's mother and siblings came to fetch him and send me home. the whole thing ended at 1.

As a friend i do not noe wad to do or am able to do anything...all tad i can do now is hope that everything will be fine...i have that bitch number and if she ever fucks Dave up agian i will give her hell.


"Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned"
-anonymous-

ok enuf slacking time for serious work. from today onwards i will be more serious in my studies and try my best to do all my hw using full effort.

today chem spa not bad. aallmmmoost fell for the trick ques but didn't. whew. anyway feeling kind of sick of doing work liao. last week chiong hw lik siao. only to realise that dis week still got so much hw. And is it just me or do the teachers lik to give work in advance? wah lau eh. we got so much work liao then just becos ask us to hand in next week u think we got time to do ar?

anyway today's accomplishment: Revise tru nitro compounds and and do the tutorial ques 1 to 4. not bad huh =)

ok thats all for tonight. good night and have a nice day tmr.

ok basically ive wasted my whole long easter weekend away... how did i do tad? well... its not tad hard actually....

k i shall sumarize it:
-spent whole night watching movies at nat's house on fri night.
-slept whole sat tru cos too tired
-slept whole sun tru cos too tired

my life sux, there are so many things i want to do but not enuf time. teh worse part is, there are i dun even have the time to do things tad i dun want to do. right now there is a whole pile of hw waiting for me *not to mention the math test tmr* and here i am blogging. sigh. i just wish time would slow down a while for me to catch up, especially for my studies. its not lik i haven worked hard uno its just tad the sch is bombarding us with too many things. i studied for chem and failed it. i studied for bio and failed it. this year im trying my best to do all the hw but is it of any use? nah. all my efforts for naught.

" i try my best but sometimes it is not enuf "

i mean, if im going to get these kind of shyt results even if i try to be a hardworking nerd i might as well dun even try right? i go home so tired and have to force myself to do my hw then there is no time to study even if i wanted to. Mrs tan said that doing hw is considered studying. thats bullshit if u ask me. maybe if the sch gave less hw i will be able to get myself to actually do some revision on my own but nooooooooooooo. The sch believes we are not capable of revising on our own and has to contol our lives at home and in sch.

"we are all mice in a maze"

trapped. There are so many routes to choose from but only 1 is the right way. The walls of the maze confines us, and restricts us to wad we do. it traps and controls us,and we are powerless to do anything but to search the walls for a way out. the walls guide our fate. Strange. it is as if the maze is fate itself, determining where we will go to. we may seem to have a choice; 2 diverging paths in a maze. But who was the one that decided which 2 paths we can choose from? The maze is the school system, controlling our lives and giving us only limited control of it while hypocritically claiming tad we can choose how to lead our lives.

i guess this is our life. This is our fate.

This morning work up damn tired...maybe it was a premonition on wads to come today...slpt during math lect then math tut cannot concentrate....geog and chem almost slept...chem mock SPA was good....well sort of...only 1 part i think careless calculate wrongly.

aft mock SPA, we still had half an hour break. met with farah then kh and hr make alot of noise say wan to gamble; play taiti. but i dun want la. even if its only playing 10 cents can still lose up to $5 lidat wad. Then kh took his cards down and we followed. I bought some food share with arisa. arisa ask me to sit with nat. i say sit with kh, farah and hr ther better.

bad mistake..

when i go ther kh keep asking me to play then giv the irritated face but i dun care him. then hr say aiya play this round warm up no money then i said ok. then kh say dun lidat leh play money then i don want play.

arisa was then irritated by kh persistence then take up the cards then play. kh win then arisa slam the cards to the table, took out her money and say nah the money. KH then suddenly angry started scolding arisa. A arguement broke up and KH looked as if he was about to fight. he even push me and challenge me to a fight somore when i was trying to seperate both of them. dun ask me wad hr was doing i dunno. It was only me trying to stop a fight from breaking out.

I admit. i was scared. Not of kh but instead about of wad would happen to our frenship. i was angry. When kh was relentlessly hurling abuses at arisa. When he would even fight a friend just to defend his pride.

aft tad i dunno wad happening later. Toked to kh but he almost wanted to fight me and kept insisting he is "fighting for justice". I dunno wad u are toking about man. Is wanting to harm a friend called justice? it seems that whatever ppl say bout controling urself u dun listen.

So in my mind,

let me tell u.
u are not fighting for anything, anybody but for ur pride.

let me tell u
if i had chosen to start fighting with u, u will be the 1 expelled.

let me tell u
ive always been 1 of those who is trying to make sure u dun get to trouble

let me tell u
ive always been the 1 asking u to cool down and control urself

let me tell u
if u still think tad u are fighting for "justice",

there is nothing more for me to tell u...

OK sorry for my short post yest. drank a bit then tired >< baron no good. heneikin nicer. toger too gassy :)

Yesterday supp to acc arisa go blood donation at yishun. Then reach there that time she sudenly say still going ballet at night. do blood donation how to go ballet?? lol. So in the end went to town walk walk. Aft tad introduce my friends roy and kx to arisa at tpy then send her off *they keep asking me faster go tpy meet them so i brought arisa along*

So y i meet kx and roy? well, we went alll the way to eunos there to see jason ng and his office. We were his clients. he wear so formal then i was lik in casual shirt and pants and kx was even wearing slippers! hahaha! then we walk about the building i think is mdis or somthing. They marketing diamond, some sort of filter thing. they keep saying got so many health benefits but to me it feels lik they exagerating. aft that went drink a while tok bout dota and stuff... too bad i could not stay longer...:(

kaes tads all. wish i have more free time though...

wad happened today:

sch. dota. date with my gf. exhausted.

good nightz :)

"PREPARE FOR GLORY!!!"

Maths was a disastor. But no surprise liao lik maths always fail it has become sort of normal *not saying this is good OF COURSE* anyway after that, went to watch the movie "300" at cineleisure with hr, kh, joel and cynthia. had a few minor problems on the way; such as thinking the show is at lido and problem getting lunch as we were almost late 4 the show.

However, the show was dam shiok la!!!!! it was not as gory as i expected though *final destination 3 was much gorier* there are some matured content and a sex scene for those hot blooded youths. But the main course of the show was its battle scenes. Basically the show is about greece being attacked by the mighty persian army and Sparta, a city in greece where soilders were trained to fight at the age of 3, send 300 men to kick some serious persian butt. Here are some things i noted about the show. if u do not wish to be spoilt pls scroll down till the spoilers are done.




*SPOILER AHEAD*




-Too many monster like creatures; One example were the main troops of the persian army called the "immortals". Beneath thier japanese lik masks were horrible disfigured monsters. There was also a executioner that had looked like "The butcher" from DOTA. if u didn't noe u would think this is a "lord of the ring" film about humans VS humonoid monsters. Each wave that came the spartans had to defeat had at least 1 monster in it. sheesh. speak about inhuman strengths.

- Many parts of the show are quite exagerated *actually joel and hr noted this* Examples are lik the heaviest rain of arrows ive ever seen and the wall made of dead persians killed by the spartans.

-CG technology played a big part for the backgrounds in this movie. u can see that the environment in the screen was a bit wierd and sort of dosen't tally with the actors *very very very minor flaw". However u start not to notice it anymore when the actions starts.

-very action packed and pace of movie was great.

- Great speeches and dialouges. NOW this is 1 thing which i appreciate alot in all good shows. It may be motivating or humourous or whatever. As long as it makes an impression. let me share some of the good ones which i can recall. it may not be EXACTLY the same as spoken on screen but the gist of it is there.
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~persian: "Our army so huge the ground shakes as it marches; our arrows will fill the sky and blot out the sun."

spartan: " well i guess we will be able to fight in the shade then.
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~king of sparta be4 the final battle: "SPARTANS eat ur fill!!! For tonight, we shall dine in hell!!!"
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~king of sparta: " hows ur injuries?"

spartan who has just been stabbed in the eye or smt: " its nothing sir, just an eye, the gods gave me a spare 1 just in case."
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captain of another greek city who brought a 1000+ men army: "you only brought 300 soldiers? "

king of spartan after pausing for a while: " you there wads ur profession?"

soldier: "Im a tailor sir"

king of spartan points to another soilder: "wads urs?"

soldier: "Im a blacksmith"

king of sparta looks back at his men: "WADS UR PROFFESION!!??"

spartans roar!!!!

king of spartan smiles to captain: " u see my friend, i have brought more soilders then u have."
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*SPOILER ENDS HERE*





So yea it was a good movie. But a guy movie la so i dun think girls will like *well, cyn said she didnt like it*

Anyway after that went to walk walk at city hall area then got kinda pissed of and went wandering off myself alone. Saw luke in the train home and chat a while.

k tired. tomorow got sch sian. *shldnt they make it a rest day or smt?* so nightz and byeeee.

"only spartan women give birth to real men" :Queen of sparta

" I know that no matter what i write or how bad i rate it, every1 is going to watch it anyway." -newpaper review on the movie "mr bean's holiday"-

cool start huh? anyway haven blogged much as im currently having a test week. It has been a goddam torture la. SO many tests. since i have been reading quite alot of reviews lately, let me share my experience the review way.

GP Review: GP test on mon in the morn. the essay wasn't too bad. i spend lik 30 mins planning the essay, 15 mins to plan the intro. my first para was really crap cos lik mental block but the other paragraphs i think can make it la. the compre was haizzzz....AQ never do. enough said.

Difficulty 3.5 out of 6. it wasn't exactly tough some parts cannot do. guess shld get borderlin pass? but gp hard to predict marks la.

Chem review: Chem paper on tues aft. k firstly i started studying chem on thursday. *or at least tried to* the MCQ was rather easy till the last few ques which i anyhow whack. paper 2 was also rather average but during the essay i already headache due to me sittin in the front row with 3 shadows being cast on my table* this is not an excuse. its true!!!* then cannot think properly. the synthesising ques and last ques blank.

Difficulty: 4 out of 6. should be 3.5 but considering the bad location and stuff i guess i add 0.5 more.

Geog review: Geog test this morn. stare blanky at the paper for 15 mins. scribble some word like characters. then give up 15 min be4 test end.

Difficulty: 6 out of 6. Never study. wad u expect?

Bio review: First see paper very enthu write. reach second page tio stun stare for 10 min. aft tad realise that only got 2 hrs to complete *there was no mcq btw* then chiong lik siao. Chi square test completely wrong. essay the OR ques also completely wrong. this means 26 marks gone liao....

Difficulty: 5 out of 6. May be less but also must consider the sibeh short time limit and energy needed to get over the shock that ther was no mcq.

Maths review: tok kok only. tmr then maths la.

Assumed difficulty: 10 out of 6. May be more but must consider that i haven take test yet.

NOW y the @#$% am i still blogging when there is a test tmr? well the reason is simple actually. ive sought of given up hope on my math. chem and bio still got stamina to mug but it seems ive run out of steam. not to mention math requires more thinking. then also i haven been keeping up with math so 1 night is not enuf for studying a new topic lik complex numbers *its called"complex" for a reason*

haiz. anyway to all others, i wish u better luck then i have!!! dun give up like me!!! im a loser dun follow my example!!!


ps-this is for encouragement sake the author in reality is not a loser

just finished studying chem. do the chem holiday hw halfway ques 2 dunno how to do sian. so now its 10 45 and im planning to salvage my gp. *dun wan to get all Us ya?*

so far i "studied fin" chem, differentiation and intergration. but i think if i see ques all dunno how to do. Bio and geog gone case liao. oh well. i just have to rely on my luck then. my lady luck smile upon me. pls pls pls, i very good boy, dun gamble or anything 1, i just need u this time *prays hard*

so anyway i guess i will slp at 11 to 1130 today. dun want slp too late.

i so wan to play wow, which is world of warcraft in case some of u do not noe. $$ not really a prob but the crappy thing is tad my com is lik crap. and so is my modem. play simple game lik maple or dota 4player also can lag until need reboot. right now i and my brother trying to convince my dad to get a new com, modem, printer, *yea even the printer gotta go* so that MAYBE i will get to put the old com in my room =D if tad happens i get do alot of things

- first and foremost i will be able to use com and chat at the same time at night. cos my com is currently in the living room which is very close to my parents room. so any noise i make they will hear *dun want them hearing me sweet toking my girfriend right?*

-second i can print all i wan in the night. Cos they always complain that the printer is noisy. *it goes clink clank clink clank like some ancient machine and jams half the time*

-thirdly, i can type as loud as i want. YES im a hard typer, my father always say teh keyboard will have to be changed earlier then the com itself cos of me.

- fourthly, if there is such a word, i will be able to modify and upgrade my com the way i want it!!! this means i will buy all the good graphic card all these. But i will have to think bout it as the total cost may build up to be more then the price of the new com.

- and FINALLY, i get to play games wthout lagging!!! not to mention buy WoW too :)

OK crap so much not productive. working hard? hardly working actually. so wish everybody all thee best for ur tests, postings, love life and whatever things u are doing that is not destroying the world or dooming humanity. cheers!!

New bleach theme

now is 10 15 but i haven started studying!!!! will blog more some other time. now must chiong *takes out notes and starts mugging*............................*or at least pretends to...*

tired la....wan to blog bt no time =/ anyway had a great time at ginny's bday party on last sat. gave her a cool bday card as well as some cute eraser thingys. the tamagotchi was from me, arisa, honren, kai heng and jeslyn.

k la tired so much hw to do...

school sux. first day first period kena scolded by teacher liao. toked to the new guy, joel. Seems ok. going swimming tmr somore lol.

didnt really hav lessons today. mostly the teachers tok bout expectation all these la. Not too bad. i hope the teachers not fierece 1.

Dunno if any1 noticed today during CT period. some ppl ask teacher to come then tok secretly lik got some conspiracy lidat. aft tok liao then teacher say shld hav some change in the class community as suggested by some of ur classmates. then say some ppl say boon too stress to take the job of welfare rep. but tads not the fucked up part.

aft a while, every1 discussing the cvd shit. then teacher suddenly call me say if i wan change from treasurer to NE rep. immediatly i noe is which bitch suggest 1 liao.

so i told the teacher say , maybe we shld wait for boon to be back be4 we decide 4 her. then i went to the class and say so who wants to be treasurer? u wan then say now. dun discuss alone. aft tad i volunteered to leave the class so tad they can make their F-uped decison decison.

in the end, no 1 speak up.

i think only kai heng got feel abit tad some ppl dowan me to be treasurer. cos he say " got ppl wan to object zhiqiang treasurer ar?"

tad....totally ruined my day...=.=

no1 understands me and i mean NO ONE. i dunno how i going to survive dis year la.....aiya got so many things to say but really tired la. Not to mention the consequences of writing ur dark feelings on a public space.

really so tired of this....

Met up with xue min, jing mei, roy, zhan xiong and angela for dinner. wei han supp to join us 1 but he got smt on.sad la. Kai xiong in austrialia enjoying life la. Anyway really long time since i last saw them liao.

jing mei and xue min never change much. k la xuemin got change as in tan a bit but behaviour wise still lik ah lian lol.

Zx change hairstyle other then tad same ol same ol.

roy still as qian da as ever.

anyways we walked around....go look at clothes...baby 1s...4 jm's cousin then toyrus walk walk chat chat. THEN as i was playing with the sword got 1 small boy suddenly come and use his sword to fight me lol. he use his toy keep hiting me.

then i say " hey kid i dun wanna hurt u"

he just smile smile lik a stupid retard and went to a attack stance. then i no mood play liao so i say " dun play la i tell ur father ar? ur mother? ur maid? ur grandpa? grandma? auntie? uncle? fairy godmother?"

all which he just ignored lor.

stupid kid.

in the end i go hide at the barbie doll section which he dun dare enter =.-....dam lame la.

ya aft tad go Ben and jerry watch xm eat ice cream **she rich la**, eat at food court then wrestle with roy alot of times...tell kh's racist jokes then go home

oh i means wrestle with roy agin then go home.

note to self: roy still owes me money. whack him harder next time.

hello hello. long time never blog properly le. I actually planned on letting my blog die but decided to update it with emails. The recent email post i recieve in blog format so i put lor.

Anyway enuf crap lets start serious blog work **stretches his fingers and has a serious look on his face** Its the new year!!! whhoooooo!!! new year means i feel lik blogging again...dun ask me y.....been having test since the sch started...**deppress** but its all over now whooo!!!! btw my spelling is still as crap as ever so dun complain to me.

feel dam happy la aft seeing kh ginny they all again after dunno how many thousands years. kh and his racist jokes gotta go man seriously... i wonder where he gets all his jokes from sia lol.

in case u haven realised, i changed my skin to celebrate the new year!!!! whooo!!! y i choose dis skin leh? dunno lor.... i c then think nice and simple.....also ppl **cough cough** keep saying i little boy so i find dis pic very .....how u say ar? dunno la u all help me think my mind numb liao...

k let me recall wad significant things i did today...........hmmm...........well nthing much really unless u count stuffing waste paper into nat's bag during geog test and laughing like a bunch of retard hyenas with hr and kh at yoshinoya. k la i guess tads all for now. hope to blog more soon **cross fingers**