hello scornofearth,

been a while since we've last met huh? sorry for my inconsistant visits ya? Things have been very chaotic lately. Two of my relatives passed away last week. 1 died of some illness. It was sudden. But not as sudden as the death of her brother 2 days later. Apparently he could not take the shock. im not close to them but my mum is. so she had to leave to malaysia with my dad to attend the funeral.

ever since that day, ive been noticing many things that i usually overlook. Keep thinking of my sec sch days and wishing i could be there forever. we were childish, but it was fun. Now everybody has change to be more mature. Unknowingly i have too although it is hard to admit. Things that were once fun are no more fun now. Those days of teasin ppl, wrestling and bullying friends. i also see my youngest brother and see myself in him. Lazy, but lik to draw and play. skinny, picky, scared of the world, the unknown.

i still am who i am last time. stubborn as always, afraid of formalities and authorities. full of angst.

tmr is the start ofthe test week. Haven study much. gonna flunk. gonna let every1 down. Sorry guys, all those promises about scoring better, Im afraid i cant keep them. So sorry everyone.