today i a bit sian to write wad happen during sch la so i will just write down wad i feeling now....pls note tad i am not directing my comments at any1...just my tots

it just seems tad some ppl really cannot stop gossiping bout others....say I lik dunno who then i like dunno who.....at first ok la but lik a bit -.- liao.....then also ar some ppl tink tad just because we frens then can keep saying a me la i mean if u just say it once in a while i can tahan but i always hear a comment on my pimples everyday i really dam =.= of it liao......another tink is tad again SOME ppl no originality 1 always copy ppl stuff such as wad they do and all those la AND i am really pissed off.....worse still is that they still treat u lik shit even after stealing the ideas.....i would also lik to make clear tad i m currently NOT IN ANY RELATIONSHIP WITH ANY1 so pls stop spreading rumours cause i am very bad about matters of the heart......
YES...there maybe some1 i lik BUT i wun show it and really pls stop prompting...-.-

a ques which has been nagging me..."is change bad?"
i admit i hav defintely changed since my sec sch days but y do my sec frens keep harping on it?
is change really tad bad?
is change evitable?
can we control wheather we will change?
or r we force to by circumstances?
is my fren envious tad i hav changed?
or am i envious of them?

and finally....

hav i changed 4 the better or worse?

i dunno y also but i am feeling very screwed up now....yesterday a good fren claimed tad sometimes cannot control and keep tinking about stuff....its been a long while since i felt lik tad...haizzz....really hope its is not wad i tink it is...

falling......
into the darkness.....
the light dimming....
fading away.....
despair overwhelms...
the pain i feel....
will it disappear...?
loneliness....
as i search my precious memories.....
new frens and old allies
too new to understand.....
so are we still frens...?
the old and loyal friends i see....
the fun times we had imprinted in my memory...
through thick and thin we hav gone
but where are u all now....?
separated....
too far to help....
me drowning in my own misery....

tis is how i felt during the first few months but never really able to put in words....
dunno y i now so depressed and angry.....lik sudenly feel alone in the world lidat...=.=