Dau som1 today......i wun lie.....it hurts......i dun dare even to look at u.....when i saw u were alone....struggling with the chem....and noe tad it is 1 of my few chance to tok to u......i didnt.....i just looked down.....lik a coward i am....when u went to the com to do ur EOM.....i just walked away....not a single word said...and went to the sofa to slp.....u dunno how it hurts.....the effort it takes to ignore....it hurts even more when i could have helped but didnt.....when i tink bout how i ignored u my heart aches.....so drained now....some1 tell me....isit all in vain?......lik she said....its better to let go now then to fall deeper in the lie......even to speak ur name i stammer....u all dun understand....perhaps im too sensitive....but im human after all.....and humans have feelings too.....yes im scared of u....u are the only 1 who could shake the very foundation i stand on.....not my teachers..not my parents....not my ncc sirs nor training...it scares me how scared i am...the first and its painful...

dis feeling of helplessness......so tired of it all......just felt lik ranting it all out...heh =/