today my stomach not behaving itself. stomach not feeling well all the way since this morn. maybe its cos of the late dinners ive been having. or maybe its cos of the chilli sotong my maid cook. kanina still ask me eat more of it. =.= today supp to meet meet gin and help her pass stuff to shalini cos gin not going sch. then sian stomach ache. lucky saw joel on the way to toilet then ask him help me collect. when reach sch for assembly also dam stomach ache so go toilet. then dun feel lik going back to hall so crowded *im a crowdphobic* saw nat loner at lib outside so tok to him. Tonight also stomachache the shit look the same as in the morning *sorry for the graphic detail* now my butt feels lik its on fire.

And so i go home early. wah stomachache all the way home. go home immediately unload. anyway my com coming tmr ! ^^ can't wait. Hope the dell dun kanina delay again...

today and tmr night is rest. will chiong again on sat =)

basket chem teacher say wad those who slp in class are those who do badly. fine whatever. u are a nerd u wun understand ppl lik us. diff ppl need diff hours of slp ok? And wads wrong with taking short naps in btwn breaks? u say u observe that those who take naps are those who do badly. Sure we may do badly. But many heros throughout history are known for taking short naps. albert einstein took short naps. winston churchill took short naps. Alexander even nap while on his horse!!!

anyway maths dam sian. i think the whole asp program lik waste time. And screw those teachers who think that aft asp we have time to do anything else. screw those teachers who say we never make time to study. looks lik most teachers have no brains at all. do u think we have the time to do both? even doing hw is tuff enuf. even if its possible to not slack a single day, how long can we keep up the momentum be4 our body fails us? DAM it. u frigging ppl dun even think be4 u do anything. And yet u scold us for not focusing. Try focusing for 10+ hr a day and i'll see u crumble to dust in a sec =.=" HAIZzzzzz

k enuf of the angst. thanks boon for acc me to try study for the past 2 days. today did the gp with sheng yi and boon. dunno where the rest go. too tired i presume. had another bonding and sharing session. i dunno bout u all but i think quite fun although im sooooooooooooo tired. anyways good luck to those who are trying the best including me :)

tired.

haiz tired. today mug maths aft sch not that productive since i haven revise my math yet so alot of ques not sure how to do. Lucky to have free mee goreng today haha. Had bonding session with nat, fami and boon during "desert" tok alot of crap and laugh alot. such sessions are to be treasured as they dun happen often. those who spend thier life rushing will end up regreting. Balance work and play, thats my style. * although i tend to balance it more to the play side.

anyway i think i just made jacky angry. sorry Jacky. i only said wad i did with good intentions.

tired

hey guess wad? i got 65 for bio paper 2!!! woot!! miss lim also gave an inspirational speech last fri. every1's toking about it. well no surprises, considering that she is the only teacher who never criticize our this time blk test results. THEN i get to mrs tan the math teacher trying to inflict depression on me by reminding me im the lowest. =.=



Mrs tan: score lowest still can laugh.



Mrs tan: lowest still dowan copy ans ar.



Mrs tan: ay u lowest not sad ar?



anyway went out with kx aft sch on fri. met at 7++ and only ate inner at 9. why? cos we were looking for zx's bday present. *yea i noe last month over liao hope zx dosen read this lol* almost bought C & C tiberium wars for him. lucky never sia cos he buy liao diao. haha i swear kx was a little nervous cos i looked ready to eat the whole shop! we supose to divide the cost equally 1 =P. Anyway enjoyed myself alot la. we shld have more outings aft my As!! =)



anyway i want to be mugger liao. hope to score Bs for my prelims. duno if possible but thats my aim for now. scoff at me if u wan but i will definitely do better next round ;)



To tell u the truth, i do not deserve the praise miss lim gave me. although i said i study i only studied lik 2 days in advance for it. it was mostly luck that i could get such results. if not for those 2 ques, i would have failed bcos the rest of my ques sux.

ok so my study marathon started today. reached home and was feeling dead tired. dunno y im always so tired... supp to slp a while then i lie down for 10 mins lidat then hr call me. so tok tok tok then after that want to rest a while more then kx call me lol. not that i angry but just saded i cannot slp. in the end never slp then i went to bath and started the run.

accomplishment? well i completed the group 7 tut with a few blanks and didnt do the last ques cos too tired. from 8 to 9 30 i coup my self in my tiny cell and forced myself to conc. so far so good. however not as effective as i had tot it would be. To tell u the truth my mind was tired and had some difficulty processing the tougher ques in the tut.

anyway today stared out alright, with the assembly ending early. seems that every1 under my name in the contact list did not do the bio tut cos i forget send the message. So to those that kena scolding =/

Thank you for ur sacasm, i really apprieciate it alot. when im in the wrong i will admit it there is no need for u to point it out bitch. did i say bitch? U are the sort of thing i dislike about girls, fickle minded, backstabbing and crybabies. Not holding anything against girls but i cant stand this sort of behaviour. Even if it is guys who possessess such characteristics. It just seems to me that girls are more prone to doing this kind of things and when things go awry some will do the act cute face which is utterly disgusting.

Anyway, made up my mind to stop being so emo. i live my own life and nobody has the power to affect my emotions. sorry if i offended any1 in the para above but its 1 of the few times words flow so freely so i would lik to keep it ther. To those of u who have supported me the past few days, i wish u all the best for da test. for those that haven, i wish u all the best too. no point getting so emo =)

Arrrrgghhh!!!! i got 17 for maths!!! hmmm guess shld be expected la. i mean how can u expect good grades when u didnt even bother to mem the formulas? i would lik to thank zqq, myself and 1 for my spetacular results. anways, i gonna fail all my other subs so i better stop being such a whiner and get some studying going.

oyea watch life in the undergrowth just now. its dam nice la hahahaha or maybe i have a sick mind =/ never do any hw. how u expect us to do hw when its the test period u retarted teachers?? dun mean to insult all but most in yjc gets on my nerves.....

sch starts proper tmr. too bad i never do any hw. what a bad start =.=

not feeling well. my stomach has been churning lik a broken washing machine since fri. dunnoy also so tired. So sian. i feel like i have nothing to look forward to. Even the arrival of the new com that ive been pestering my dad to get isn't getting me excited. I have no motivation. right now i feel like an empty shell.

Stupid dell. The new com supp to come today in the end delay to thurs.

thinking of nothing. And yet my heart feels so heavy. thoughts go and pass too fast for me to grasp them. Maybe im just tired. it all be better tmr morning =)

wasted 3 hrs of my life on maths yesterday. had tution on thurs but realise i forgot everything. To those of u guys who claim u all " never study", i know u guys did. looks like ur words only can believe half only. so whatever it is, good luck to those who took the block test =)

Anyway, after the test we went a round looking for a lan shop. most of the lan shops were full. In the end we went to amokio play lan. Be4 that went eat sumo bento. the food was cheap but not as cheap as kh describe lol. The lan shop there sux like the 1 in plaza sing beside speedy. The coms dun have some games, its lik the location of the games are completely random.

SO we play dota and were trashed (cause kh was the only pro player there) then we played CnC tiberium wars. wanted to play zero hour but joel keep saying old game not nice. lol whatever lor i just feel that i dun lik playing tiberium wars cos i dun even noe wad each unit are and cannot guess cos " too technologically advanced" for me. The building sistem is also diff from other strategy games ive played so far.

Aft playing went home and saw xue min and pek ha at the interchange. tok tok a bit then see qin yi and fiona then they ignore me until i say hi to them. so tau. Went home slp, then go play dota with kx.

looking forward to the dota game today cos got new player :)

My mp3 randomed this song for me. long time since i heard it.


Should I Stay

by Dreamz FM

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…

feel lik eating shushimi. but there is a shortage of tuna!!! never mind la i prefer salmon more. also feel lik wating carl's junior. never eat before.

Tmr is geog paper. haven study. later try read a bit. cos i feel that study geog no point. always fail. maybe my answing method wrong. The current teacher also sux i feel. i prefer miss selvi lor. although she everytime scold us but she teach very step by step and i like.

anyway, no hope for this block test liao. i guess i will have to work harder on the next 1.

hmmm long time never drink beer liao. anyway i also dun lik the taste. but i like the feeling. when i drink, i feel mature and that i can leave my problems behind. teh company helps too as i only drink if got ppl i noe. hmmm not tad i feel lik drinking also. dunno y i tok rubbish.

for those that are depressed out there, very sorry but there is nothing much i can do. i also feeling very down. i dun wan to say u can call me or anything cos i feeling very loner since beginning of this year already. Study hard and get out of this god damned place and im sure u will feel much better. i'll be trying to do the same too.

ARGH I CAN'T GET ANYTHING INTO MY GOD DAM HEAD!!!! screw it. my father got tix for transformers tmr night. screw that too. -.-

i not studying liao la. nothing going in also. i absent mindedly stare at the paper for 15 mins. then i realise wad i doing then try to mentally read the words but after a while stone again.

WAD IS THISS!!!! WADS HAPPENING TO ME!!!!!

damit.

wah today bio was a killer la. lik study or dun study also no diff cos the question totally never see be4 1. Anyway im desperately trying to get smt in my head for chembut it seems that nothings going in. i can stare at the paper for 10 mins and realise im onl the same page lol.

somebody save me!!!! i guess its unavoidable. my fate is sealed. i can only redeem myself aft the tests -.-

I CANT FOCUS!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!! *goes into frenzy*

so tired. tired tired tired. *sung to the "so horny" tune*

tmr is bio and i haven revise photosynthesis and evolution!!! *mendalian genetics too but i think i will skip that =)* i guess bo bian must wake up early study tmr... haizzzzz....

really wish i had studied cos the way i see it, the subjects aren't really that hard to study lor. But now if wan last minute study got too many things to mem -.-

btw chem paper 2 is ONLY 45 MINS!!! O.O didint notice that till joel pointed it out. cool. means can no need go sch on that day....?

hmmm nothing else to write about. dunno y ginny want me blog also -.- nobody wants to read bout my boring life anyway =.=

hello scornofearth,

been a while since we've last met huh? sorry for my inconsistant visits ya? Things have been very chaotic lately. Two of my relatives passed away last week. 1 died of some illness. It was sudden. But not as sudden as the death of her brother 2 days later. Apparently he could not take the shock. im not close to them but my mum is. so she had to leave to malaysia with my dad to attend the funeral.

ever since that day, ive been noticing many things that i usually overlook. Keep thinking of my sec sch days and wishing i could be there forever. we were childish, but it was fun. Now everybody has change to be more mature. Unknowingly i have too although it is hard to admit. Things that were once fun are no more fun now. Those days of teasin ppl, wrestling and bullying friends. i also see my youngest brother and see myself in him. Lazy, but lik to draw and play. skinny, picky, scared of the world, the unknown.

i still am who i am last time. stubborn as always, afraid of formalities and authorities. full of angst.

tmr is the start ofthe test week. Haven study much. gonna flunk. gonna let every1 down. Sorry guys, all those promises about scoring better, Im afraid i cant keep them. So sorry everyone.

its been soooooo long since i blog. perhaps some of u tot i had died from that sickness huh?!!

* crawls out from the grave*

well anyway, i dun feel lik blogging anymore. somehow i do not have the zest i had in my sec sch years anymore. Almost everyday im feeling depressed and down. i think i am suffering from down syndrome.

kk just joking about above. yesterday i slack whole day. felt so good. and i feel bad bout it. HEY i just made a paradox!

kx asked me: "when am i going to start studying" i didnt noe how to reply so i just gave my standard ans i always give when facing this kind of situation. "soon"
how soon? well seriously ive also always asked myself when ill start studying. i have a short attention span so i dunno la k bye.