wasted 3 hrs of my life on maths yesterday. had tution on thurs but realise i forgot everything. To those of u guys who claim u all " never study", i know u guys did. looks like ur words only can believe half only. so whatever it is, good luck to those who took the block test =)

Anyway, after the test we went a round looking for a lan shop. most of the lan shops were full. In the end we went to amokio play lan. Be4 that went eat sumo bento. the food was cheap but not as cheap as kh describe lol. The lan shop there sux like the 1 in plaza sing beside speedy. The coms dun have some games, its lik the location of the games are completely random.

SO we play dota and were trashed (cause kh was the only pro player there) then we played CnC tiberium wars. wanted to play zero hour but joel keep saying old game not nice. lol whatever lor i just feel that i dun lik playing tiberium wars cos i dun even noe wad each unit are and cannot guess cos " too technologically advanced" for me. The building sistem is also diff from other strategy games ive played so far.

Aft playing went home and saw xue min and pek ha at the interchange. tok tok a bit then see qin yi and fiona then they ignore me until i say hi to them. so tau. Went home slp, then go play dota with kx.

looking forward to the dota game today cos got new player :)

My mp3 randomed this song for me. long time since i heard it.


Should I Stay

by Dreamz FM

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…

feel lik eating shushimi. but there is a shortage of tuna!!! never mind la i prefer salmon more. also feel lik wating carl's junior. never eat before.

Tmr is geog paper. haven study. later try read a bit. cos i feel that study geog no point. always fail. maybe my answing method wrong. The current teacher also sux i feel. i prefer miss selvi lor. although she everytime scold us but she teach very step by step and i like.

anyway, no hope for this block test liao. i guess i will have to work harder on the next 1.

hmmm long time never drink beer liao. anyway i also dun lik the taste. but i like the feeling. when i drink, i feel mature and that i can leave my problems behind. teh company helps too as i only drink if got ppl i noe. hmmm not tad i feel lik drinking also. dunno y i tok rubbish.

for those that are depressed out there, very sorry but there is nothing much i can do. i also feeling very down. i dun wan to say u can call me or anything cos i feeling very loner since beginning of this year already. Study hard and get out of this god damned place and im sure u will feel much better. i'll be trying to do the same too.

ARGH I CAN'T GET ANYTHING INTO MY GOD DAM HEAD!!!! screw it. my father got tix for transformers tmr night. screw that too. -.-

i not studying liao la. nothing going in also. i absent mindedly stare at the paper for 15 mins. then i realise wad i doing then try to mentally read the words but after a while stone again.

WAD IS THISS!!!! WADS HAPPENING TO ME!!!!!

damit.

wah today bio was a killer la. lik study or dun study also no diff cos the question totally never see be4 1. Anyway im desperately trying to get smt in my head for chembut it seems that nothings going in. i can stare at the paper for 10 mins and realise im onl the same page lol.

somebody save me!!!! i guess its unavoidable. my fate is sealed. i can only redeem myself aft the tests -.-

I CANT FOCUS!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!! *goes into frenzy*

so tired. tired tired tired. *sung to the "so horny" tune*

tmr is bio and i haven revise photosynthesis and evolution!!! *mendalian genetics too but i think i will skip that =)* i guess bo bian must wake up early study tmr... haizzzzz....

really wish i had studied cos the way i see it, the subjects aren't really that hard to study lor. But now if wan last minute study got too many things to mem -.-

btw chem paper 2 is ONLY 45 MINS!!! O.O didint notice that till joel pointed it out. cool. means can no need go sch on that day....?

hmmm nothing else to write about. dunno y ginny want me blog also -.- nobody wants to read bout my boring life anyway =.=

hello scornofearth,

been a while since we've last met huh? sorry for my inconsistant visits ya? Things have been very chaotic lately. Two of my relatives passed away last week. 1 died of some illness. It was sudden. But not as sudden as the death of her brother 2 days later. Apparently he could not take the shock. im not close to them but my mum is. so she had to leave to malaysia with my dad to attend the funeral.

ever since that day, ive been noticing many things that i usually overlook. Keep thinking of my sec sch days and wishing i could be there forever. we were childish, but it was fun. Now everybody has change to be more mature. Unknowingly i have too although it is hard to admit. Things that were once fun are no more fun now. Those days of teasin ppl, wrestling and bullying friends. i also see my youngest brother and see myself in him. Lazy, but lik to draw and play. skinny, picky, scared of the world, the unknown.

i still am who i am last time. stubborn as always, afraid of formalities and authorities. full of angst.

tmr is the start ofthe test week. Haven study much. gonna flunk. gonna let every1 down. Sorry guys, all those promises about scoring better, Im afraid i cant keep them. So sorry everyone.

its been soooooo long since i blog. perhaps some of u tot i had died from that sickness huh?!!

* crawls out from the grave*

well anyway, i dun feel lik blogging anymore. somehow i do not have the zest i had in my sec sch years anymore. Almost everyday im feeling depressed and down. i think i am suffering from down syndrome.

kk just joking about above. yesterday i slack whole day. felt so good. and i feel bad bout it. HEY i just made a paradox!

kx asked me: "when am i going to start studying" i didnt noe how to reply so i just gave my standard ans i always give when facing this kind of situation. "soon"
how soon? well seriously ive also always asked myself when ill start studying. i have a short attention span so i dunno la k bye.